Celebrating Christmas and Holidays

I was one who was looking forward to holidays because it means time spent with family. But I realise now, I always associate holidays with family. As my family is not what it's used to be anymore, holiday is just another day. I can't be bothered with the gifts giving anymore. Not that I don't want to spend and bless others, but the spirit is just not there. There is no more Christmas shopping and I hate buying birthday gifts because I don't know what to get. I would pay for dinner or buy people things but not necessarily on the special day itself.

I guess it is kinda sad that the excitement is not there anymore. I know it's not the sign of growing up because I don't want to be adults who are skeptical and bitter about things. I want to always be like a child who appreciates little things and be happy with small things. I want to be like a child who looks at things with big eyes full of wonders and excitement.

2015, I hope you will be good to me!